why? does anyone know?

why do i get hurt so easily?
eventhough it is a small matter, it also hurts me n make me cry.

i've always known that im sensitive. easily get mad or angry at things.
but i don't like myself when i show out my feelings. thats why i keep it.
but i am also a person who doesn't like to keep things inside my heart.
it is so painfull that nonody can understand.

i am understanding,

mayb too understanding untill i change n make myself to keep the pain to myself.

is that a bad thing or a good thing??

i don't like to argue or fight( doent count in joking/ playing)

i realy don't, it only hurts me deeper.

but mayb you all think that im that kind of person who like s to find things to argue.

im lost. i realy do not know what to do.

if im good n understanding, im the one who gets d pain.

but if im not that tolarant or understanding,

it will oni end up argueing.

what should i do?

cant anyone just understand me?

why should i always be the one to understand people, to suffer the pain alone?

why i dont just let those who hurt me to feel the pain instate of keeping it to myself?

what can i do to avoid this?

when i cry, i need someone to hold me n tell me everything is gona be ok.

when im down,i need someone to just solve all the problems i have for me so that i can be happy again.

when im sad, i need someone to ask me "are you ok?" and cheer me up with funny jokes so that to lighten me again.

i am not a depress person, so happen that i have to face a lot of problems alone.

facing the problems alone is not such a big matter, but being alone when nobody care or know?

thats a sad thing in my context.

how i wish someone could understand me n be there for me when i am in need.

sigh..........

mayb its all just me. im the one who hace problems. not others.

i do doubt myself. but with no answers only with pain.

sad huh? dont be sad after seeing this. coz i dont wish that to happen to you.

be happy and joyfull as u already are.

continue ur life with excitements and hope.

mayb briging me some when you see me when im down or sad.

i can feel it.

finally... =.="

hey, i finaly can write to my blog d...

so sad la, wanted to say our my feeling for the past few days.

bt unfortunately i cant.

dunno what happen to the line.

does thaipusam has such a big effect?

oni a dy then d line got problem d.

everyone around me got internet problem.

hmmmm.. i wonder.. =.="

well, i've been bz doing with my assignements n attending classes.

i prefer this kind of live(busy) than before staying at home without doing anything but sad.

haha... i feel so much better now compare to the past few months.

a lot had happen but its all in the past which i cant realy do anything.

sigh, sometimes i wish i could.

mayb just to get an honest answer.

why everything also cannot get my point of view first le?

i mean im involve in it d lo.

haiz... sien

so unfair, n im d kind of person who always want to b fair, even to myself.

but no, i always get d opposite.

sigh... sad la...

Just the start of Jan, so many things had happen... haiz

Well, to be frank, a lot had happent to me n my best friends.

y le? like wat ?
like relationship problems la, finace problems la and some family problem lo.
im so tense now. having headache oso... sigh.. -.-"

now i have assingnments, a lot of them. then have to replace class till late late.
haiyo..... y so many replacament class ge?
i oni gt 4 subject, but oso have to study 5 days in a wk.
den summore replacement class like more than other courses...
=.="" how cum? should be lesser la.. bt no. its like d same.

den im so stress now. like wana pass up d assignment 2moro.
actualy it is on 28 feb. but its like 2moro. haiz.... stressssss...
i hvnt even start writing in my own words,wants to see in microsoft word d?
so fast.... makes me think im slow, then like will have 2 rush n cope to tat lvl of speed.
tense la... =.="