sad sad o... how cum le?

i feel so sad out of a sudden.

i dunno why.
something is bodering me lately, but i repressed it.
i know.

actualy things dont have to be so clear at times, but what's my value?
am i worthy enough to be respected? to be love? to be remembered? to be special?
i can be passive , i can dont say a word, i can dont have any responsibility or title given to me, but what i want is just a little pure heart that tells me how worthy i am.
not to say u can have me any time and thow me aside anytime.
im sorry, i cant accept that.
what i want is just conistency to treat me as u like, pure from your heart.

maintaning something special or great is not easy.
bcoz what does change in this world is "changing"
"changing" in this world is always consistent.
nothing will be the same as before except "changing"

people come, people go.
if they stay, they are sent to teach u a lesson, when u master it, they go.
no one will actualy stay beside u forever.
but ur memory does.

all the sweet memories u have that cannot b taken away.
it will b misplace, but one day it will come out again when u need it.
so treasure the happy times and the special moment you have.
keep it save and sound where u can always open and see once in a while.
to cheer u up when ur down, and to motivate urself throughout the hardtimes.

keep up the good work, continue to love people around u, be nice and kind to everyone and YOUSELF.

let go when you know you have to, hold it when it is worthy to be hold.
trust urself, dont give up so easily when u never ever tried.
at least once, then take the best out of it and let it go when it end.