Hidden Treasure

Just yesterday my mind was filled with all of Mariah Carey's song.

All old and new (E=MC2) and obviously plus the funny american idol of 'Ken Lee.

Now, this instance only i realise that i actually know all of Mariah Carey's Songs,

and the weirdess thinsg is i actually like them.

haha..

Wow, can't belive that i actually like Mariah Carey's songs.

She is really a diva, i feel teh emotions in her when i see her sing.

Great feeling.

=)

Before this,

a few weeks ago, my tutor, Mr. Yusof was talking about Mariah Carey and all,

I didn't belive that she was taht great and dont recall any of her songs,

and now, its all in my head,

where it should fill with my coming exams' notes i 9th, 12th, and 15th of this month.

haha...

but as u all know ,

songs are more eaier to get in people's mind than teh old boring notes.

but life goes on that i have to get serious on my exams now

coz its getting NEARER.

so, BYE for now and i will get back soon.

=)

THE Pet Society

Hello =)
I'm baaaaaaaaccccckkk ~~

haha... miss me?

always wondering where have i've been?

haah..

tell you the truth,

i was buzying with my school work and

playing a great game.

that is "The Pet Society"

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yep. this game is realy cool.

i thought that it is quite boring but due to the holidyas i played and now im adicted to it.

haha... its in my list od task whenever and wherever i go.

wakakaka..

it is a game where one can meet people all over the world and even France, Paris, my dream place.

not only that, it is a on going game.

what i mean here is that it will keep updating everyday and it had costumes and furnitures and many more just like real life.

now, its getting near Christmas and it had christmas trees and decorations and also turkey as food and toys.

haha..

it eally make my day..

im so excited when new things are in the shops for me to buy.

new furnitures, new clothes, new walpaper, new foods and toys...

wow, it just a great game.

and the funny thing is, one day when i was in school and i wanted to open my facebook and play this game, those who were in the lab was all, ( really All) playing this game,

im so proud of myself that i was in a quite a high level

haha

=)

try it !! (recommended!!)

long time no see

haha..

to my dear blog..
long time i have never talk to u bout my little secrects that kept in my heart.
yeah..
thats the main reason i created u.

to share my secrect when i could not share with others but u.
sometimes its not that i dun wana open my mouth and tell
but thats just too much to say and i worry that others wont have the time and patients to listen to me.

trust me, i really wanted to tell
but when i see others have their own problem and things to do, i realy cannot bare to see them suffer even more to listen to my sadness.

yeah, so theres a lot in my heart that i wish there wouldnt be in there.
but im not gona start with that now
now im gona start with saying im gona face my finals for this semester soon on the 9th of this month
so wish my good luck and i will try my vey best.

=)

here i wish all my dear friends those who are striving for ur exams

Gambateh ! Gmbateh! Gambateh!

Go Go GOOoo ~~

haha...

friends

i have once thought that friendship is something cannot be compared to love.
i have also once thought that frinedship is forever.
now i know that we humans interact well and become friends.
as the wise says
people come and go through our life,
but friends make a mark in our life.
if we like them
we chat more and understands more.
when we are close,
we are understanding and always looking at the other side of view,
untill we love them so much
we care and forgive them always.
fate brought us together as friends.
no one is perfect.
we have to give chances to people in order to help become a better person.
what we do is to serve as a mirror to others.
showing and reminding what they have to do and what is right to do.
friends help each other but not hurt each other.
if we dont like each other
we wont be friends.
we respect and honor the other people's decision.
but if it hurts, we tell them and remind them that.
sometimes our actions affects others without knowing
that is what friends are for.
reminding the forgotten.

i miss u

my dearest blog
sorry for that i did not come to write here in such a long time.
i am bz currenly doing my asisgnments.
due to the fact i have five subject this sem, and the higher level of understand ing is needed i have to pay more attention in it.
OMG. LOL/
im writing as if im doing my report.
wakaka ^^
cannot cannot.
come back come back.
haha..
back.
the second version.
such a damn long time never write here ady.
miss u la my blog.
neve update any news to u.
so sry ya..
^^
well. for ur imformation im stil single and hoping that my true love will appear soon.
haha..
while waiting, im focusing a lot on my studies and now bz with assignments.
as u know utar, once the assignment is given everyone is like crazy lloking for resources from library to internet resources.
so, im too have to become one of the norm.
haha..
bt still i do have my lazy side that is atching dramas with my family .
i've change.
i dunno is becoz of my hair got cut short
or bcoz i got a few days fever.
haha, i can tell u that i have change.
last itme i do not wish to go home after school and wish to linger around until the day is dark.
but now, even though i just wen to school for 2 hours class, i will want to go straight home after that.
just dunno why.
having the feelingof home is the most comfortable place for me.
as the saying goes,"home sweet home"
^^
so..
to those who miss their home, i understand ur feeling and encourage u to go home often.
go to ur family and love ones.
they miss u too.
^^

im sick

meeting new old friend

haha

confuse with the word "new old friend" ?

^^

someitmes i may say or do things very wierd.

but

tat is me

haha..

i think that now oni me, everyone also have their unique way of do or saying things.

unique in the sense of no one understands or not the norm.

where everyone does it in the same way.

the phrase "new old friend" here can be knowing a person for a long time(old friend) but just getting close with that person recently(new).

haha

or it can also be the other way round.

it all depends how u experinece and perceive things.

im made me quite happy that im getting to know a long lost friend that i knew from primary school.

haha..

long huh??

yeap. it indeed is that long.

recently oni got his contact number n oni recently know that he already has his own shop in law yat selling laptops.

wat a great thing to hear after such a long time.

and im oni starting my second yr without any income.

haha

irony it may seems but still everyone grew up with their own destiny to go..

^^

so here it is, the faith of 2 different ppl when they grow up.

a new start

seeing my dearest friend moving to kampar to futhur her studies i have a sudden feel of missing stg.

n only now i realise that it is her i that i miss.
a good n best friend i had

that always gives me support n fun
crazy days n nights going out ,adventuring with her.

hope she will be find going to a totally new place with total new experience.
i know that being new is not an obstacle to her.
because she is kl
haha
^^

yes.
that is her.
she is always strong when she meets obstacles.
n i had learn a lot from her.

from a unconfident personality of mine to a crazy gal i have been.
the days i spent with her was great, amazing n unforgetable.

i hope she can see this,

to tell her that"fai fai, i miss u truely. do come back often n take good care of urself always. anything plz call me n tell me. ^^ "

lets pray hard that she could oversome rocky mountains.
^^

god bless her

autuism

today i was so clumsy that i travel early to school for the tutorial class, which is told loudly that on the 1st week of school will not be needed to attend the tutorial classes.

haha..

how silly was i to realise that there is still 2 hrs more before the lecture starts.

^^ oh well.

then so i reach jaya one at around 11 stg and went to starbucks for a sit till class starts( 1pm)

i was so relax with the enviroment of starbucks

woth a cup of grande mango passion.

BUT eventualy my poket money was running out.

haha

due to the fact that i went to starbucks again after class at berjaya timesquare's border's .

this time i ordered a caramel coffeehot and a cake called NOIR.

if not mistaken its fill with black chocolate and cheese with a cookie in the middle.

at fisrt i went to the borders to look for my textbooks

but then i found autuism instate.

so i look futher to other more.

and took few books from that shelf

all was about autuism.

den i found one book quite interesting,

den i caught me for few hours of reading that book.

it said wat is autuism and how to know when one has autuism.

i had a projsct on disable children lately and i thought i might help me.

indeed it help.

know i know what is ASD,PDD & apraiser's.

mayb im slow but at least i know now.

^^

what a day.

2nd year

im about to enter a new begining of a new year in my academic.

im entering the 2nd year of my degree.

i hope to strive the very best of my and use my potential to the fullest.

i will promise myself tat i will work extremely hard my way.

mayb others cant see it, bt in the end, i will know wat i did.

working hard does mean i take off all my pleasure.

i am not a serious person, so if i tak off all out it, i will be psycho now.

haha

anyway, i will do it.

like wat i always say,

try my best and leave the rest.

^^

the future

the future?

why we are not surpose to know about the future?

why cant evrything be known b4 we act?

mayb u can say that if we were to know everything then there wont be surprises?

but wat if it is not surprises?

what if its a disaster?

what i see now is a world or gamble.

we have to trust stg that not sure.

stg that mayb it finaly turn out not being so.

bcoz the fate is unknown.

some se the future as bright as the sun.

some see the future as black as coal.

its so mysterious, unknown, not trust worthy and many more.

dont tell me tat its bcoz there is lack of confidence?

sometimesu just dont know wat happens tomoro.

even though u r the sultan of malaysia, the queen of england,

but still, the are still human being.

thats why they say oni the GOD knows.

haha..

what a way to say things.

to me, i think that just go with the wind, and direct it when it din go ur way.

be happy, thats up most important.

coz when u are happy, u dun mind to get a long turn back whenu make mistakes

when one is happy, they dun mind if others have bring trouble to them,

instate they are willing to help too,.

the world is never known.

even fate can be change.

the oni thing that stay permanent in this world is changing.

that is why the world is unknown.

LoVe

Today, i woke up and listen to some oldies.

Those songs are so passionat that it is all a bout love.

& now im so passionate to say things about love.

There are a wide division on how ppl see in love.

To me,

LoVe is a 4 letter words which represent one being cherish, appreciated, cared for, protected. & would never ever be hurt just as precious as life.

Knowing that it is the same lvl of importance as life has only one chance.

"Till death do us appart"

as said in the vow of marriage.

Just a simple LOVE represent such a lot of meaningful & sacred symbols in life that complete a person's life.

Many thought that being cared, being understanded, being love is teh most important thing in LOVE. that is why when problems arrives, many forget that being able to be with each other is the most treassured thing to own.

Then, many think that "he dont love me anymore, he had change, he is not the one i fall for.

In the end, they separate because of own assumtions and not letting the other to explain.

Because their doors to their heart has close,

there is no trust & faith in each other anymore

just because the FORGOT TO TRUST.

TOLERANCE,

therefore is the key to open the doors

being patient,empathy, & unconditonal positive regard.

Sometimes, as we get older, we tend to be realistic and we dont trust,even ourselves.

But things just some times needs a little faith in magic and luck.

Then, things will turn out a "happy ending" after all.

^^

REMEMBER TRUST AND TOLERANCE.

HaPpY hOlIdAyS... ^^

wakakaka...

im free... yeah!!

free from my exam

free from not enough sleep

free from stress

hahaah...

yeah!!

^^

i finaly can sleep untill wat time i wish.

do wat i want

watch movie la..

go shopping la..

go sing k la..

haha..

anything.

^^

i will enjoy although its a short holiday

coz my school starts on 26th of may

so...

anyway, i will enjoy while i can

hehe..

^^

so , i here wish everyone who is having holidays like me to have a wonderfull holiday

and those who are not having holidays will still enjoy their everyday life with the fullest excitment..

haha

^^

emotional unstable

haiz...
was under some emotional unstable.
long time din cry until so much ady..
very sad la..
din experience these much emotion in a long itme liao la..
suddenly get this kind of thing will die la..
haiz...
sad sad sad
think back of some bad memory of how i was being fool and trust some one so much and end up all lie.
haiz...
lie lie lie..
what is there to lie about?
i know im stupid to trust you, but why do you wana treat me like this?
dont i deserve better?
what did i did wrong that i wound have to have this kind of treatment?
haiz
men are strange, bad, and like to dont be responsible for their actions.
why?why can't ,men be men?
take girls for granted.
haiz, disapointed.
i know u may say not all guys are like this, but if u area men, what would u feel if that guys are not reaponsible?
shame?happy?it "should"?
i dunno la..
whatever la.

April 27, a day to remember

oh my god!!

i cant belive what i did yesterday...

hahahaha..

i was so fun and fabulos.

great day.

wakakakaka^^

i am so happy and satisfy with yesterday.

haha

u know what happen?

at first i went out with my friend benny to have breakfast(dimsum)

haha..

then later on when i reach home,

my best friend came along to my house.

and then both of us spend the whole afternoon to update and design our tb7 friendster

haha..

so fun and geram

coz we edit and edit and edit

and finaly it sparks wth perfect.

haha

then we were hungry and ask benny out for diner

he was so blur at first becoz he just woke up at around 5 to 6pm

den when we reach murni we saw baobao

that was carmen's bf

den we so miss carmen and ask her to cam out for a drink

haha..

den we chat chat chat untill 11 something den we decided to give yoyo a surprise.

wakakaka

this is where the climax begins.

haha

at first it was oni benny voice and she thought that oni he wanted to wish her happy birthday,

then suddenly benny on the loudspeaker and all of us sang a birthday song for her and said our names and wish her individually.

haha..

she was so shock and surprise that all of us was together to great her.

^^

den yoke lee suggested that why dun we go genting one round to get some cool air and come down later?

haha..

u know what we did??

yes!!

we was so spontaneous and advanterous and went up to genting with the 10 of us.

wakakakaka.

hahaha

damn cool la..

haha..

when we reach there the birthay gal, yoyo, was so happy that she great us with a great smile.

haha

she din expected that thing will go this far,

untill genting le..

u think what??

haha..

this is tb7 i said.

haha.

den we sang "wo huai nian de"

got rock, classic, ocastra,hip hop and many more..

we was so high.

haha.

den later on about 5 am in the morning

we went down and have the "sambal dimsum" we had

wakakaka.

untill about 7 am

that was the end of the trip

haha.

so that was how i spend my gentip nmidnite trip

on april 27.

wakaka.^^

the second subject ^^

hahaha..

finaly oni left 2 more to go..

YEAH~~
very happy..

haha..

i just back from having a breakfast with benny.

hahaha..

we went for dim sum.

so nice

hahaha...

great meal.

yesterday

after d exam, i went home and take some rest.

later i went for diner wf some friends AND THEN

I SLEEP FROM 8PM TO 11PM.

WAKAKAKAKA...

its been a long time that i ever slp untill so nice la...

hahahaha..

good sleep.

haha...

^^

so i conclude here that sleep is very important.

espacialy the girls.

a good and enough sleep can make ur skin look more nicer and more radient.

so sleep well and get enough sleep.

^^

finaly, the day has come

huuhhhhh...

finaly, the first social psychology is over.

today is the first day of my exam week.

after this i still got 3 more exam to go.

here i motivate myself

Go Go Go !!!

Gambateh!!!

^^

just 3 more oni

U CAN!! ^^

hahaha...

and to all of those who are striving for the finals

go go go!!

dont give up hope

as long as u try ur best

you have nothing to fear

coz u did a fantastic job

^^

no fear

U CAN!

Yeah yeah yeah!!

v(^^)v

what do u think of me?

when u see me or hear my name or even just look at my blog,

what do u think of me?

what kind of person am i?

am i weird?

am i silly?

or nothing come through ur mind?

anything good about me to be said?

anything special ?

coz lately i've been through some hard times and seems like no one knows the good of me.

no one told me or even realise how good i am.

this is when i started to question myself, am i that bad?

that hard to be notice?

u may see me as a quite person at times,

mayb u think that i dun care bout others.

your wrong

i do care about those around me and those i know.

i motivate you if you were down.

i support you till the fullest is u need one.

i will always be there when you need me.

but who should i call when i am down?

who know that i am sad when i am crying?

who can make me laugh and tell em everything will be fine?

no one.

how sad to say but it is the truth.

oni i myself know it all.

sometimes, i just need to cry out and shout out saying "i am sad" "i am crying, dont u see that?"

oh well, i still hope some one will appear in front of my face and tell me it all will be fine soon.

the clouds will be blow away before u know it.

the sky will be sunny bright with rainbow on it.

i will be waiting for u.

MaTuRiTy

am i childish?

what is consider childish to u?

play play and never do homework?

or say things never go through brain?

or do some really irritable actions?

to me, to be a child is a very happy thing.

u know why?

do u see children holding books of politics?

you only see children holding books of carttons and fiction.

why?

because they are pure and belief in this world that have miricles and magics.

why are adults so realistic?

and what they dream as a kid did not strive to it later in life.

they give up their dreams, ambition and most of all the "meaning in life".

nowadays life just being so stressfull and no one know how to laugh and smile anymore.

so to me, in some occation, being childish and playfull are a way to make u feel alive again.

the way of knowing how to laugh and smile is the best medicine in life for all obsatcles.

am i worth?

did i did stg wrong to those who have treat me like this?
why should i receive such a treatment?
if i ask myself, i did good.
i treat you all with care and love.
and what i get?
apologise and mistakes?
what??
everyone is born to be worthy of something.
and can't mine be so?
or mine is just not in the form of love?
when i was down who knows?
you may say if i nvr tell no one will know.
but how should i tell?
where is my angel that guide me?
i need you.
i feel so lonely and being worthless.
why cant everyine just treat me good?
i dun wana hate someone, anyone.
please dun make me to do so.
but if i keep all in me, i will burst one day.
god , please help me.
SOS.
!.!

miss u

miss u la my blog...
very very long din come here and write my feelings d...
so where hsve i been ? and what did i do?
haha...
study study and study

hope to get good grades o...
going through some hard times here.
hope the clouds would go away soon.

i suddenly think of something saying like this,
being transparent is a hard hard thing to achive.
i know understand why ppl where masks.
and changing different one where they meet different ppl.

for example, when someone fart in front of you and you knwo who it is.
you will tend to not show out the expression of knowing he did it.
and put on a fake smile which sending out sign of nothing happen.

some say this is being polite but in the same way they are cursing in the heart.
well i oso dunno what i should do in that situation but to smile.
so, its hard being transparent and ask, did u just farted??
not wanting to shame that person who farted but in a way want to be honest.
so ppl just tend to act duno and walk away.

what would you do to be transparent and honest?

im sick

huhuhu...

pity me..

im gona get sick soon...

out of all why now?

im gona prepare for study le...

dun gt sick now la

plz..

or gt sick now and gt well soon b4 exam..

if not i die lo...

pity me le...

but dun worry...

just a small flu..

will take care of myself d...

wont surrender to the "sick" .

fate

what is fate?

is it good?

or is it hurting?

fate is the thing u call when two stangers into having intimacy relationship.

there is always fate around you.

just that you din notice and appreciate it.

all the people around you that you know are being bond with this word FATE.

haiz....

i see a lot of couples getting together lately in the people around me.

and i ask myself where is mine??

ask who? cupid? and ask when is the spear going to strike through my "price" ?

haha...

anyhow, this is a nature thing.

so cannot be forced but to wait.
^^

so,

have faith.

^^

sad sad o... how cum le?

i feel so sad out of a sudden.

i dunno why.
something is bodering me lately, but i repressed it.
i know.

actualy things dont have to be so clear at times, but what's my value?
am i worthy enough to be respected? to be love? to be remembered? to be special?
i can be passive , i can dont say a word, i can dont have any responsibility or title given to me, but what i want is just a little pure heart that tells me how worthy i am.
not to say u can have me any time and thow me aside anytime.
im sorry, i cant accept that.
what i want is just conistency to treat me as u like, pure from your heart.

maintaning something special or great is not easy.
bcoz what does change in this world is "changing"
"changing" in this world is always consistent.
nothing will be the same as before except "changing"

people come, people go.
if they stay, they are sent to teach u a lesson, when u master it, they go.
no one will actualy stay beside u forever.
but ur memory does.

all the sweet memories u have that cannot b taken away.
it will b misplace, but one day it will come out again when u need it.
so treasure the happy times and the special moment you have.
keep it save and sound where u can always open and see once in a while.
to cheer u up when ur down, and to motivate urself throughout the hardtimes.

keep up the good work, continue to love people around u, be nice and kind to everyone and YOUSELF.

let go when you know you have to, hold it when it is worthy to be hold.
trust urself, dont give up so easily when u never ever tried.
at least once, then take the best out of it and let it go when it end.

^^ relaxation

i just went for a hypnosis talk on last sunday.

i was fun and also cold.

haha... coz i choose a sit which is facing directly from the aircon.

coldddddddddd....

but i was so amace that i was realy hypnotize by my fren yj and seeing my self consciously.

haha...

weird.... scary...

haha...

anyhow, funnnnnnnnnnn!!! =P

haha.. who wana be hypnotize by me tel me..

haha... lets discover hypnosis consciosly..

^^

then i oso lern how to relax by being hypnotise..

so overall hypnosis i when u realy focus and relax and you willing to be hynotize.

^^ wakakaka..

presentation week

haha..

all assignments and exams are over..

now left presentations.

i just finsih my counseling skills' presentation.

so far so good lo.

i did my best to perform myself la..

still can improve la..

but in a limited and given time, i did what i can lo..

hehe

well..

dunno la..

lately my friend has admited to hospital.

he is fine but the doctor still can't tell what is wrong with him.

so.. here i wish him to get well soon lo.

^^

1+1=-1

what does (1+1= -1) means to you?

can you figure it out?

one day, my friend ask me this question.
and i try to use mathematic method to solve it.
it end up coming out like this :

1+1 = -1

1 = -1 -1

0 = -1-2

= -3

from this answer, i interpret that is 3 person are in a sad situation.
this is what usualy ppl around me called, triangle love.

i think that love is surpose to be a 2 ppl thing, but
unfortunately, there is one more person who's loves is equal as the other 2.

therefore, from the initial question, 1+1 = -1
that is in the end, one person sad better than 3 person.

so, let the 2 ppl love each other and one retreat.
then they will live a better and happier live.

^^ gambateh!!
live happy forever !!
hapily ever after.

i hope that every couple will be sweet untill infinity
^^

wakaka ^^

wakakaka... ^^
so happy.. u know why?
coz i finaly finish all my exam and all my assignments.
wakaka..
after a few weeks of not enough slp.
today im gona slp a lot untill im satisfy.
hahaah..
but i have earn a lot of thing and knowledge during this few weeks.
making new friends and getting to know the importance of friendship.
haha.. good good ^^
hope you all out there, although you are going through hard times,
you still you gain something for urself.
coz when you give, you will receive stg greater and better.
^^ gambateh o!!
go go go
^^

in a situation of happy and sad

i think im too stress.
dont have enough sleep lately.
haiz... =.=Zzzzzzz
then end out being too sensitive again.
well, but the happy part is, my birthday is coming in 58 minutes later.
wakaka...
dont know what will happen.
haha...
but anyhow, still have to stuck infront of tv and work on with my assignments.
^^
so......
i here wish myself "HaPpY bIrThDaY"
hehe... paiseh la...
20 ady lo..
^^

haiz... so tired and sick of

im so so so tired la.

aiyoyo...

next week have to hand up 2 assignment d.

"gan jiong" la..

havent finish also.

how how how?

die lo.

haha no la, so easy to die meh?

wakaka... well, will do my best and leave the rest.

^^

not getting enough sleep lately.

so charm. but i gues everyone( psychology student) is also.

anyhow, hope everyone will NOT stressout

& keep up the good work.

^^

wa... so much to do and so little time.

there is so much going on lately.

but i will still have the time to do everything.

we always have time, just that we think not enough is due to the fact that we are slow or did not organise properly.

we always have time as long as we are alive. rite?

haha^^

well, i dun think thta busy is a good reason, infact, i think that it is an excuse.

oh well... people take for granted by using them to tell poeple to stay off.

how bad......

why people just cant be sincere and say, i dun feel like talking to u now

or i have thing to do but i will still pull out my time for you.

and then... dang dang dang dang.

you receive messeges saying, " im sry that i could not make it", ''can we meet another time"

" im not free now, got things to do"

rubbish.

eventhough i gt exam i also can take my time out to have a light chat with my friends.

why? because i use my heart to treat my friends and not the brain.

always not sincere or changing targets of friends.

so not good and fair.

huhuhu !.!

haiz

lately so fan and headache.

so unhappy lately.

how would you feel if ur friend din show up for twice when agreed and promise to meet.

if that was a guy how would you feel bout that if you were a gal.

already said wanted to tell him something important, still got acsueces.

whatever happen(not including of urgent matter) have to keep your promise and show up eventhough for awhile.

am i rite?

and if you have something to do, then tell earlier la.

dun wait untill people call you oni tell.

you think people very free a?

people arrange their time for you and end up what they get? lousy acsueces again!!

and things has been done never mind la, try to make it up for them lo.

not just say sorry can d lo.

who you think you are?

people trusted you and keep high hope of you showing up(scared bcoz last time din)

you just dun aprreciate what people do for you.

taking people for granted just like that doesnt take you anywhere close to be a friend.

and making people disaapointed for twice in a row.

saying sorry wont heal anything oso.

you dont know how important this is to me,

you oni cared bout yourself.

den fine.since your so selfish.

im not gona meet you again.

what kind of guy are you when you make a agal cry and dissapointed??!!

damn...

what a day... a celebration day and tired.

Because today have to sit for Counselling Skills' exam,
i studied until 3am yesterday.

then woke up at 6.30am today.
so tired and blurrr... =.="

anyhow, got up and get dressed.

then start to study again.

haiz, finaly, its over.

very tired now.

luckily got Kieve.

he tested me on the counselling skills.

then i remember clearly form him.

Thanks ya. ^^

owe u one.

haha.. ^^

after class, me and sim yee went to mid valley and brought "Big Apple" donuts for famliy.

haha, Valentine's day ma. ^^

so ma buy lo.

no one ask me out oso.

celebrate at home alone.
haiz. so pity.

but still got wishes from everybody saying :

" HaPpY vAlEnTiNe'S dAy "

To Someone I XXXX

You cared for me,

You make me laughed,

You liked me.

That was when i didn't know that i like you.

I miss you,

I was worried bout you,

I cry for you,

but you didn't know.

This is when i realise that i like you.

All was fine when i didn't know that i like you.

but all when wrong when i knew i like you.

Since that day, i wait, wait and wait.

but you didn't take the next step.

I am down and impatient,

because i like you, i care.

Now i stand, and try to get things done.

but what i get is disappointment.

So what i feel now is tired and pain.

is it? should it be that way or this way? answers anyone?

wondering and guessing make me sick.
what is so is so, what is not is not.

why can be not answered or not known or middle?

sometimes i think too much.

then i only do what is best for others and not myself.

i would try to understand their situation and give reason for them to hurt just so.

den i would try to forgive them by ignoring my own sadness in heart.

after awhile, the sadness cannot be repressed and it just floads up automaticaly.

then i hate myself being nice to others and not myself.

everytime oso like that.

not one time im selfish.

im actualy not prasing myself.

i am scolding myself.

having conflict.

and dunno why the angel side always win.

i think the thing is, i dun not dare to hurt anyone but myself.

haiz...

haha.. new year coming.. ^^

gong ci fa chai ^^ gong xi gong xi

haha.. so happy that chinese new year is coming.

so fast reach the month of febuary d.

haha... i was dieting lately last january.

but then when reach the month of febuary, cannot control that much ady..

haha, coz too much food to eat and functions to attend.

but nvm, i will still kepp track and remind myself to control.

^^

so happy that i success in diet for the 1st month.

i lost 3 kg in 3 wk. ^^

haha.. gambateh !!! go go go !! ^^

bt today i was abit sick with a running nose and heaty.

hopefully nothing start from tomorow. ^^

ok la, slpy d, nitezzz ^^

a perfect day ^^ haha

haha, today was perfect.

know why?

ok, 1stly, it was bcoz it was sim yee's birthday.

happy birthday sim yee ^^

2ndly, i won the debate for life span.

3rdly, i went to sing k with my good friends, and was so happy to see all of them, especially benny. haha, so miss u la shi fu ^^

4thly, and the most important 1 is that my mum is back for holidays.

wakakaka ^^ so happy today.

and all i can attent. haha.. great ^^

huhhh.. what a day.. ^^

haha.. what a day.

today was an ordinary day with me going to school and attending classes.

hmmmm...

then me and ian went for a drink at old town(lately the most frequent place)

haha ^^

so long no see liao... chat a lot and also talk a lot of nonsence..

wakakaka ^^

u know me.. ^^

actually is ian that do the talking and i listen.. blekk..

then when i reach maluri, at the bus stop, a middle age lady just happen to saw my text book entitiled "therapy and practice of counselling and psychotherapy"

then she start ask me what they teach me in it

later on start reviewing her questions and problem.

wah...

i was abit anxious, coz i just study it like not long ago.

but then i help her out abit with explanig this and that lo.

then she was so happy that she finaly found a solution, and she wants my number.

well, i realy do want to help la. so i just give my hand phone number to her lo.

then hope that she can solve her problems.

wish you luck ya

hehe ^^

a memorable day

today i went to kuala selangor for a one day trip ^^

i make a lot of friends today, all also very funny and nice to be with.

at first, we gathered at maluri at 8am.

because the delay of few people, so we only start our journey at 9am.

then it took about 2 hrs to that ophanage home.

we played quite a few games with the little children( most of them are malays)

that are very exciting and we build our intimacy relationship.

they were so happy today that we came, especially when the present giving time.

all full with smile and laughter.

after an exhausted time for playing games,

we rest and then have our lunch with the malay trade mark, nasi lemak with delicious sambal.

haha ^^ so nice, summore got karipuff and kuih-muih.

later on, we visited the place where all the children play and sleep.

their home.

it is not like what you imagine.

it is just like an ordinary home with televisions and all.

so comfort and warm. good for the orphans. keep up the good work. ^^

then we went to bukit melawati. to let mokey see us.

wakakaka. there were so many of them.

all over the place.

i find it to be abit geli.

next, our journey bring us to sekenjang. where the padi field is.

but unfortunately, it had been harverse. so, cannot plant or see anything.huhu..

futhermore, its time for diner, we reach the fishermans' place

where all the seafood are there for us to eat.

haha ^^

we had such a great meal, with the full set of prawn, fish and crab.

when we ate the crab, all of our hands are fill with source, haha ^^ dirty dirty..

i bought so many things from there.

especially there prawn cracker. it was os cheep that i just couldnt stand to buy.

haha, n so i bought about RM30 of snacks.

haha, all for my family la. coz miss them and wish that they could join.

haha ^^

later on, on the way back in the bus, we all started to get close(especially girls)

then all start asking names and taking numbers. even taking pictures.

wakaka... ^^

so fun. i think we were the noisiers in the bus. haha, well, u know me.^^

overall, i like it. it is a memorable day for me.